Operating From a Place of Fear and Separation
Over the last few weeks, I’ve been feeling a sense of withdrawal. During this time I’ve been trying to figure out whether what I’ve been doing on this blog has been helpful and valuable. Wrapped up in that wondering was a lot of
After I decided to cancel my first in-person workshop because I wasn’t able to get enough attendees to make to help me cover the cost, I decided to take a step back and figure out what could be the most valuable thing that I can offer. But instead of jumping immediately into brainstorming and idea creation, I decided to instead do some self-reflection.
What I realized during this time was that I had gone from a place of operating in trust and love to operating from a place of fear and separation from Divine guidance. Which led me to wonder, why didn’t I notice it when it happened? Why didn’t I recognize the minute I moved from trust to fear.
Before I get into that, let me give you my definition of both.
Authentic Self: Operating From a Place of Love
- You know you are being guided by the universe/God/your higher self and trust in the path that you are on
- You recognize your intuition as a voice representing your higher self and divine wisdom
- You don’t overanalyze situations, you trust that your intuition is telling you to do the right next thing
- You understand that everything is cyclical or seasonal, and when there are periods of low momentum or inertia, it is just part of the process
- You recognize when your responses are coming from ego and while you pay attention to those, you do not act on them
Separated Self: Operating from a Place of Fear
- You have forgotten that you are a divine expression, even though you have never been disconnected from your spiritual self, the Universe, or God
- You feel the need to plan every aspect of your life in an attempt to control your outcomes
- Your need for control comes from a place of not trusting that you are on the right path or that your path is unfolding as it should
- You generally plan for the worst-case scenario and spend less time thinking about the best case
- You spend a lot of your time worrying about everything, from minutia to the bigger aspects of your life
- Things never seem to be going your way
I recently realized that feelings of withdrawal were a result of me operating from a place of fear. I didn’t trust that this temporary pause on the blog was just a part of my journey. I didn’t trust that the answers would come when I was ready, and I was trying to overanalyze and overthink potential solutions to my problems.
What I'm Doing Now
In order to return to operating from a place of love, I am doing the following:
- Meditating to connect with my higher self and receive the guidance that I need
- Removing the pressure to solve any problems
- Accepting a state of less inertia, which, like all things, is temporary
- Practicing intuitive journaling
- Reading and learning until I’m ready to resume creating and sharing
- Being at peace with all of this
I’m starting to dig in deeper to learn more about what it means to operate from a place of fear vs. a place of love. I first learned about this concept in The Seat of the Soul by Gary Zukav (one of my must-read book recommendations) and A Course in Miracles, and I now plan to check out a few of Marianne Williamson's books including A Return to Love: Reflections on the Principles of "A Course in Miracles". I look forward to sharing more along the way.
In the meantime, I'm wishing everyone a beautiful new week ahead filled with peace and self-compassion.